Well, pretty much next month in march, everything is probably going to change again, like the poles of the earth.
In that month, I am going to pay a visit to a old friend of mine, Jude (her name is protected) who I haven’t seen in two years. That’s a long time since the last time I had saw her was graduation. Ah, graduation, the fun part of my life (not really), she was very kind to me that day and look pretty *beautiful* that day. I miss her. I miss her like how my mom misses my dad. She is the one that makes and made me feel like a human rather than a alien. I could always tell that she look me into the eyes when I used to talk to her in person. Again, she is beautiful. She is very mature and I kinda need a mature person in my life in order to get me.
The only thing that makes me feel that I am not worth it is that I don’t have anything to offer to her. Sure, I can take her to all the cool shows I go to and shit like that, sure I can spend money on her, sure I can write songs about her and shit like that but I couldn’t do the things that appels to her. That the things that suck about a women, they are all about appel and what makes a man a man.
I am not a man.
